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Was a heavy day today. I normally dont' shoot weddings. Hell I've turned them down because they're simply not my thing.
A good friend of mine from way back since highschool is getting married next week, and the date next week's already been moved up due to the bride's ailing father. He was informed that he had cancer in his liver earlier in the year (caught it too late, so it's terminal), so they moved it up hoping he'd still make it to his eldest daugther's wedding.
Last night I got a call from the groom and asked if I'm free this afternoon. I knew from the timing that this can't be good, and he wouldn't have asked me unless he was in a huge jam. Sure enough, the dad's condition was slipping and they think he might not last another 8 days and they're going to have a small ceremony today in case anything happens. I cleared my schedule and just told him to tell me the time and I'll be there.
The ceremony was brief; but I don't think I've ever had such a hard time trying to get my emotions in check on a job before. It's easy to NOT get angry at a model, because ultimately it's easier to detach myself from those shoots; but this was hard. Mainly because I still haven't totally recovered from losing my grandfather 2 years ago, and mainly because seeing a close friend losing her parent right before your eyes isn't exactly easy to stomach. The bride had a hard time trying not to cry because of the situation, so that made it even more sombre in a supposedly joyful situation (albeit under difficult circumstances).
Just had to get it out. Been thinking about it all night and have no other place to vent, that's all.
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you rock, dude.
